Dream Threads

Other priorities get in the way as I risk my own mental health. A job, homework, and my thoughts. That is what keeps me awake at night. I get home from school and go to work, I do my homework, or procrastinate, and then I lay down later than I wanted to try to get some sleep. I only have time for six hours of sleep, it seems like it should be enough. But when I wake up it doesn’t feel like it. I think for a while, my thoughts don’t let me sleep those six hours most of the time. The time I have left decreases each time I look at my clock. I think about my life, the way it is now, and how it will all be different very soon. I regret some of the conversations I never had, and how it may have helped my life. I drive myself crazy as the time I have left lessens, going from six hours to just three. I sleep those three hours, just to wake up and blame my job or my homework for my lack of sleep, but really, It is my mind that keeps me awake at night.